I am always saying that I should be more spontaneous, but I go out of my way to avoid anything spur-of-the-moment. Just deep down I am not a very impulsive person. Maybe I should be so I wouldn’t get so bored.
I envy my friends who can do this. I have no idea how they do it. I worry about everything and want a structure. A plan. A routine.
I’ve been invited to Pennsylvania for spring break by one of my best friends. I have nothing better to do, so why am I not jumping at the offer? Honestly, I’d be staying on campus the entire break. My boyfriend is going home, as with most of the rest of my friends. I shouldn’t have qualms about this. I trust my friend not to kill me and leave me by the side of the road. So, why haven’t I said yes? The smallest reasons are succeeding in stopping me when my reasons see no reason that they are a reason!
I should say yes and ignore the “why-not” for once. Or I can stay here. Those choices seem perfectly equivalent…
Bleh. Sleep well.
Ashley Kirtman 